I’m alone in my room, lying in bed and typing random shit on my laptop. I’m not exactly sure what I want to write about since so many things are going through my head right now. I could write about my thoughts on “Aldub” and how much they have affected me or write about how fucked up I am at work these past few weeks or how to survive with only P300 pesos in 4 days and my incredibly huge debt or about this guy I’m sort of seeing or maybe my developing alcoholic tendencies — (breathe) but I couldn’t seem to organize my thoughts. I just missed writing in general. I couldn’t even remember the last time I wrote something other than a line or two for my copies. I just miss writing stories, about my experiences and whatever it is that’s going through this crazy brain of mine. Sometimes when I read something written by a colleague I couldn’t help but feel envious. They’re so good with words and expressing themselves that when I reflect on myself I don’t feel at par with them so I scrap what I’ve been writing and move it to the trash bin. So here I am, stuck in my room and letting my fingers do the talking. It’s raining outside and I couldn’t get out. I left my umbrella, which I just bought two days ago at my friend’s car.
Anyway, I’m doing just fine apart from not having money and still figuring out how I can eat, I’m really doing well, surprisingly. I have a sort of stable job that I’ve grown to like (been with the company for 8 months now – which shocks me as well) and have friends who are really supportive and fun to be around. I can say I’m happy, genuinely happy. I’m just simply enjoying this moment in my life right now and I’m glad to have people around who understands me. While problems still exist, I’m just taking it all in stride and the last thing I need right now is to make myself worry about the small stuff. I don’t want to over think things anymore and just go where the tide takes me. So, yeah, I guess for a change I’m writing something other than what’s making me sad or my quarter life crisis fiasco, I’m writing something “happy”. So that’s it. I do hope everyone who gets to read this is having a great time too and if you’re somewhere stuck, not referring to the traffic in EDSA but in life, just know that everything will be fine and whatever problems you have will pass. Take it easy and take it slow, don’t rush yourself too much and don’t worry your life away (as Jason Mraz said) because at the end of the day you’ll realize that you only have one life to live and when you do you’ll need to think about yourself and what makes you really happy. It’s all about you and your contentment so if you’re not happy, pack your bag and find it somewhere else. There are so many things out there for you to explore and so many opportunities you can tap and what you need to do is experience all of them so when you finally arrive at the end your journey, you can say that you made your life worthwhile. PS Don’t forget about your responsibilities of course (which I know I have forgotten already). So always be happy and always think positive. Smile!