I was ready to start anew and forget about everything that happened last year – the good the bad and the ugly – everything that went down between me and my friends. The falling out was the hardest part of it all – the painful realization that things will never be the same again.
There’s really nothing more I could do now but accept what happened and learn from it hoping that I don’t screw things up again.
I apologized for what happened so many times I stopped counting but I guess they weren’t ready to forgive. I don’t even think I could forgive myself either if a friend of mine had done the same thing. But I was drunk… ok, that’s not an excuse I guess. A better excuse would be… I wasn’t thinking.